Zen Garden

in need of calm and peace of mind

O

Invictus

Day 4 - 8/4/10

Some times words are not necessary. When i first saw Invictus the movie was deeply touched by Nelson Mandela's sense of not becoming a victium of circumtances. How he could rise above it all including his ego. Something to think about.

Bright Blessings
O

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

William Ernest Henley

Dicipline, Focus and I can make it

Discipline
Day 3 – 7/4/10
As I watch the last traces of summer disappear and wonder what the next 6 months will bring to my life I grieve for the warmth of summer gone and anticipate this blue sky girl missing the sunshine.
The thought for me today is on staying focus first day back and I am still on holiday mode everything and everyone moving much faster than me.
I have done my hour of power x 3 today and it feels simply wonderful and I am achieving allot. However how can I get this feeling of strong in my work place when there are countless numbers of emails, phone calls, tasks to do and the list goes on and on?
My discipline back bone is in need of development. Just like I am doing with other areas I guess it’s about taking little steps.
The mantra for tomorrow is “Seek to understand before being understood” one step at the time.
Break things down into little chunks and above all be patient.
Bright Blessings
O

Little to no control

Day 2 – 6/4/10

Little to no control.
Its funny about control the more i seek it the less i have it. Yhis is not a noble habit but rather a depreciative one.
After time away from work and family to relaxs find my own space in the world if that can be done in 10 days well the answer is no!! A big fat no!! But what i found in my time off is how i do need to create my own personal space. How i hunger for time alone as much as i hate loneliness the space i have created has made me happy.
I am a creature of habit therefore now i need to come out of my shell and be around others. Challenged by the changes in the landscape of my life i know i can emerge perhaps a little more confident and stronger than i was 10 days ago.
I have successfully done my power of 3 work today.
Physically i am seeing the results of the hard work and feel this physical strength that makes me feel happier and more relaxs.
Spiritually i am connecting more to my inner world and this time has allowed me to see how it connects to the outer world.
Mentally i been focusing on reading but also being inspired by others out there.
This little bubble I call home has been kind to me. I am greatful for having so many wonderful gifts in my life including my health, my senses, family and friends.
Do i feel in control not really tomorrow there will be yet another adventure all the twist and turns of working with people. Juggling tasks and finding time to sink back into my own comfort of home, diving into my own pool of blessings only be cleansed again and be able to start the journey again the next day and the day after that and so on.
On that note its goodnight from me.
Blessings
O
Work is love made visible. And if you cannot work with love but only with distaste, it is better that you should leave your work and sit at the gate of the temple and take alms of those who work with joy. For if you bake bread with indifference, you bake a bitter loaf that feeds but half a man's hunger."
-Kahlil Gibran

Hour of Power x 3

Day 1 – 5/4/10

Hour of Power x 3
Oceana Blue in persuit of Happiness, Balance , love and understanding. This is my mission I am going to learn to embrace something i fear the most which is change. I am challenged by it and it gets to a point where i feel paralised by it. However it seems that change is something i am completely unable to avoid both professionally and in my personal life.
““Be the change you want to see in the world.” Gandhi

I want so many things to change in my life but how can it happen if i hold on to things, people so tightly. So the goal is embrace change, evaluate and change what is not working for me.

Action for today Hour of power x 3 for Mind, Body and Spirit.

For my mind i made a decision to start reading books right now i am reading Lisa Curry fitness books which touches on the physical around fitness, nutrition.

Spirit I am focusing on gratitude and my blessings. I started meditation again and hope to keep that going since it relaxes me and helps me feel great.

Body – a workout at the gym which was great interval training and increasing the intencity of my workouts i am truly started feeling stronger and more energised. Ending with a spa and sauna to relaxs the muscles.
Tomorrow i am going to start the City to Bay training schedule on my own slowly so when i start with my trainer it wont be so overwhelmingly hard.

The experiment is to do this for the next three months. And make changes to the nutrition.

I want to do a photography course but for now i feel that its important not to over committ my personal time to many thing but accomplish one thing at the time.

There are so many mountains i want to climb in my life so this is going to be a way of documenting my journey.

I am also needing to come to terms with my empty nest and that my children now need me in a different way. As one door closes in my life another door opens.

Till tomorrow
Goodnight
Oceana